All About Shelby

Hello, you beautiful and wonderful people! Well it seems it has been awhile since I wrote last and I honestly cannot believe it has been over 8 years since I started this blog, man, if I had kept up it would have been amazing.... But seeing as how I haven't written in 2 years, it is not so miraculous.  Anywho, I have been trying to focus more on self care these days and I remember how much I enjoyed writing in here. So... What's new? Uhmm I want to take the easy way out and say nothing but it has been 2 years, so obviously something is new! 1. I called it quits with my B.Ed for honestly, a lot of different reasons. 2. I went back to doing hair - who would have thought! 3. I went through a really hard breakup and a broken heart. 4. I met the most wonderful human. 5. I dealt with a lot of death. 6. I am starting to figure myself out. Well, where shall we start to elaborate on any of that... How about school...  Well, I did almost 2 years of school and it was hard....

Well, two posts is more than I made last year, so I guess that is something! I am not entirely sure what I am going to write about today but I am sure there will absolutely be some rambling and ranting along the way! Life is good. I am really enjoying work, which is nice. This is the first time I have just worked and not gone to school as well in a very long time, so having a pay check every two weeks that doesn't go to tuition is AMAZING. Though I know that will make it harder to go back, but I will go back one day, I am sure of it.  I have really been trying my best to figure out what makes me happy and what kind of person I am, which has proven to be a very difficult task. I feel like so many people around me "have it together" and I am just over here making up the moves as I go. About a month and a bit ago, for one of my best friend's stagette we had a psychic come over and she gave us each a private reading. Some things that she mentioned to me, I was unsure ...

So, in January I turned 25 but with 25 came a lot of changes in my life and inside of myself. I decided that it was time to take a break from school after going for what feels like forever. I began to change my outlook on careers, relationships, kids, material things, everything honestly.  I began to realize that there are so many things in this world that don't have to be absolutes. A friend of mine asked me who I was 5 years ago and it got me thinking about how much I have changed and how much I have grown. "Who was I five years ago?" Well, there were 3 things that came to mind, these 3 things that I was so sure I wanted. 1. I wanted to get married. 2. I wanted to be a mom. 3. I wanted to be a teacher. Pretty common things, I think. Things I was sure I would never waiver on, so sure that I would tell anyone who asked me. This is what I want and this is what I intend on achieving. 5 years ago,  I was on my way, and I sit here today years later, having achieved no...

What is new in my life?  Well not a whole lot actually,  still going to school,  still have the same friends,  still worrying about everything,  still dealing with anxiety.  Isn't that just the life?  I suppose.  It is mine at least lol. So, I feel like I have spent a lot of my time trying to find my "thing."  I always wanted to be that person who had one thing they were known for.  So I've tried it all,  I draw,  which is fun but I don't find myself constantly doing it and if I decide to do it as gift it seems like more of an effort than something I just enjoy.  I tried scrapbooking... Nope.  I tried running,  nah.  Then baking,  which I actually do love!  But somehow in the midst of looking for my "thing"  I never even realized that I had already found mine and I'd had it for a long time and it had always been my outlet, it had just been something that was always private and I never really...

Well, the title says it all... This is something that I deal with every single day and it's not just a simple worry that I think most people deal with, it's a worry that makes me physically ill, a worry that drives the people I love crazy, a worry that literally eats me up inside. Some days, I think that I am just worrying my life away, waiting for something horrible to happen, losing sleep because I really have a horrible feeling that something is wrong. It's not about getting bombed, or an act of terrorism, it's isn't that I have some sort of disease or I am dying, it's that something has happened to the people that I love. That one day, one of them is going to wake up and realize that they don't need me as much as I need them or need me at all. This type of anxiety is beyond painful and for someone who doesn't deal with it, it seems almost surreal to them. That some minuscule things could affect me in such a way... But when my mom leaves the city to d...

So, I spend lots of time reading other blogs of all sorts and I came across one blog that a 17 year old girl who was writing about having  a hard time in high school with everything, mean girls, boys, pressure from her family and from the media. Well, this particular post was about a couple of girls who called her a whale and told her that "you can only wear a crop top if you're a size 2 and you look like a size 14." Well this just really bothered me more than other blogs or posts I had read and maybe it is because I have become invested in this girls blog and I have gotten to know her through her posts and emails we have exchanged. I felt that I could completely relate to her, I remember having severe self image issues when  I was in high school. I remember back then I thought I was huge and now I see pictures of me then and I'm like AWE DAMN! Why don't  I look like that anymore. We never seem to be happy with what we have and always want more, I find. O...

Hey guys! Sorry it has been a little while. I just feel like I can't write without some sort of inspiration and today my inspiration isn't the happiest of memories but definitely one of my stepping stones to growing up. On Facebook there is a "On This Day" app and it basically shows you all of your statuses or pictures on that particular day in past years. Well today, June 2nd my Facebook status was about how excited I was to go wedding dress shopping 3 years ago and I sat there reading it and not being able to believe how much had changed within those 3 years. I know I always come back to being engaged and my ex a lot and now that isn't because I'm not over it but honestly, that was probably the biggest turning point in my life thus far. I see all of these statuses each day and they take me down memory lane, they mostly remind me how happy and in love I was, or how many amazing friends I had/have. I say had/have because I can't believe how many people hav...

Well, I ended my last blog with how excited I was for 2015 and that things could only go up from there. Well, this year has turned out to not be the easiest for me, honestly. Some things haven't gone in my favour at all. Going into 2015 I really thought that this year was going to be spectacular and I mean honestly, I have nothing to complain about, it hasn't been so horrendous! That would be extremely dramatic of me. But... it's been different. Today I am basically just laying it all out on the table. Read is you wish, you're about to get an insight into my year.............. I know you'll keep reading cause you're pretty freaking awesome. Yeah, you. I suppose this year has really just revolved around my friends and my winter semester at MRU. Probably the hardest thing that I had happen this year was losing my job. Now you are probably thinking, why would you bring up getting fired? That made things awkward... Well you are telling me!  Even worse than being ...

I was thinking about this past year and what I could write about which lead me into my old posts. I just cannot believe how much my life has changed since I started writing on here, it is quite amazing actually. I am so glad that I started doing this, it is like my online journal and I love sharing my thoughts, stories and life with everyone. My first post was October 2012 and the direction that my life was going is pretty much the complete opposite than it is now, it is actually quite surreal how much things have changed in only 2 years. I ended some relationships, created new ones and mended old ones throughout the way. The most memorable part of my year would have to be going to London with my 3 best friends, that was truly one of the most amazing and fun experiences I have ever had. Seeing Buckingham Palace was truly sensational and I am pretty sure I got a little teary eyed. Camden Market was surreal, it was a huge flea market almost with so many shops you would need all day j...

This may be a morbid one! I had to write my own eulogy and obituary for a class! Enjoy! Obituary: Shelby Robyn Collett, 23, of Calgary, Alberta passed away on November 12, 2015 after fighting a very long and hard battle. She was born on January 25, 1992 in Drumheller, Alberta, she was the only daughter of Ralph Collett and Yvonne Comstock. She graduated from Strathmore High School in 2010 and was in the middle of completing her teaching degree at Mount Royal University. Shelby is survived by her parents, her grandparents, George and Jewel Comstock, her sister Paige Severtson (Brad), her brother Casey Collett (Pam) and her nieces and nephews, Dayne, Kali, Carson, Grady and Lila. Along with numerous special aunts, uncles, cousins and friends.  A celebration of Shelby's life will be held in Hussar, Alberta on November 17, 2015 and Shelby made a request that bright colours are to be worn as well as that in lieu of flowers please make donations to a charity of your choice. ...

So sorry I haven't written in so long.... I have been so busy!! But hopefully getting back into routine will help with things! So this past Tuesday, the 23rd I began my practicum with a grade 1 class. I figured I would enjoy the older kids so when my practicum got switched from grade 6 to grade 1, I was a little disappointed, I'm not going to lie. But I told myself that it would be fine and it would be lots of fun to teach these little guys. Little did I know, I would be more than right!! I was so nervous that these little 6 year olds wouldn't like me. Jeez, they had caused me so much worry and stress for being so little and cute! I started the day with the principal because the regular teacher was away. She introduced me to the kids as Miss Collett, which is still really weird for me to hear. I have never been called that in an actual serious matter. The first kid to pipe up was a teeny tiny little boy with the biggest brown eyes I think I have ever seen. He walked up ...

When I first signed up to do this challenge, I thought it was going to be super easy and have no effect on me. Honestly, I was completely wrong on both accounts. Doing this challenge changed something in me, and it was definitely not as easy as I had anticipated. When I started, I had lots of dresses so I had a lot to choose from. However, I mostly gravitated towards the ones that were longer or had sleeves. Because of course, I hate my legs and my arms. WHO DOESN'T right? Well shit, after 10 days in I knew that I would have to slowly gravitate towards my shorter dresses, some that didn't have sleeves and I often didn't have a (clean) shawl/cardigan to go with the dress. So I didn't have a choice but to wear these dresses that I had been storing in my closet for that special day, or until I found a sweater that matched perfectly to cover my arms. But you know the craziest part of it all? Once I started wearing my short dresses, or the ones WITHOUT a cardigan. Holy sca...

Well, it is a good old Tuesday night and I can't sleep... What better way to spend my time than writing in my blog. It has been a while!! This one is going to be about love. I am not sure exactly what direction I am headed but sometimes the best creations have no plan! ;) You know you always hear that you will never love anyone as much as your first love, or never fully immerse yourself into a relationship after your first heartbreak. I think that those thoughts are partially true... I know for a fact that my next relationship will be entered with much more caution than my first one was. I didn't know what it felt like to have my heart broken, to be hurt that much... I dove in head first 100% of my heart and I had no trust issues, no problems, and it was good.  It was exactly what a first relationship should be like, I was happy. But like all relationships, the honeymoon stage ends and problems begin to arise. Now I am definitely not playing the victim in the problems departm...

After someone passes away there are so many things that people believe happen to them. But the truth is we don't really have any real proof that anything happens to them. I always liked to believe there was a heaven or reincarnation...something. Perhaps we just tell ourselves these things to make it easier to cope with the loss of someone. I never really knew for sure. I liked to believe that mediums were real and that spirit were really around us all of the time, I think mostly for comfort.  I think I talked about my experience with a medium last year a bit. But I mostly focused on my car accident and didn't really go into to much detail about my experience with her.So when I got to my sisters house, I was really nervous. I'm not sure why exactly, I just really wasn't sure what to expect. I had worked the the day before so I was one of the last ones to arrive and go.  When  I first sat down, she asked me a couple general questions, "how are you today?".... ...

The front of Kensington Palace So, I kind of left ya hanging on the last one there! So after Buckingham Palace we went to Kensington Palace. I was so excited to see it, especially because were allowed to go inside and tour around. It was all recently redone, and they tried to keep a lot of the rooms the same as they were when the Queen lived there! I cant seem to remember what it was called but something like Victoria: Revealed. It was so so so interesting to see. Lorien bought me a book all about it, it is called Discover Kensington Palace and it has a lot of really cool things in it.I will probably write this entire blog about Kensington Palace simply because I loved it so much. So I hope you enjoy! We walked around the side of the building to get in, when we first entered it was a little cafe type thing and then we walked through the gift shop to get up to the counter to pay. I knew that a couple of the girls were a little weary about going in, to be fair it was $65 doll...