All About Shelby

Well, I ended my last blog with how excited I was for 2015 and that things could only go up from there. Well, this year has turned out to not be the easiest for me, honestly. Some things haven't gone in my favour at all. Going into 2015 I really thought that this year was going to be spectacular and I mean honestly, I have nothing to complain about, it hasn't been so horrendous! That would be extremely dramatic of me. But... it's been different. Today I am basically just laying it all out on the table. Read is you wish, you're about to get an insight into my year.............. I know you'll keep reading cause you're pretty freaking awesome. Yeah, you. I suppose this year has really just revolved around my friends and my winter semester at MRU. Probably the hardest thing that I had happen this year was losing my job. Now you are probably thinking, why would you bring up getting fired? That made things awkward... Well you are telling me!  Even worse than being ...

HERE WE GO!!!! So, throughout life I have always been bigger. Now what "bigger" means, I don't really know. To some people I am chubby, to some I am fat and maybe to some I am obese. Now, I know this. I am not blind to the fact that I am not skinny. Of all the people in the world who should know that, it is me. I am the one with the body. For a long time I really hated myself, I didn't think I was pretty or beautiful and when people told me those things I just shrugged it off. I hate getting compliments, I go all blushy and never really know what to do. Obviously I say thank you, but you know! I just cannot believe the pressures that the media puts on women (and men) to be so perfect. My friends, I am going to let you in on a little secret. Perfection does NOT EXIST. The one thing that you can control no matter what? The kind of person you are. Be kind, be generous, be strong, be stubborn, be the very best version of yourself. That is all that matters in the world...

I don't even know how to talk about this last year. I can't believe how fast it flew by. The beginning of 2013 was so far, the toughest and most difficult point in my life. I ended things with my ex and honestly I had never felt more alone. Even though I was surrounded by people who cared about me and were standing behind me no matter what decision I made I was walking away from the one person that had been there for me for the past 3 years and that was something that couldn't be replaced. I suppose I never really talked about it much on here but it definitely put me in a rough spot in my life. Just because you are the one doing the breaking up doesn't mean that it is any easier. I was literally walking away from someone I knew loved me more than anything in the world, that had my back and wanted to spend the rest of his life with me. Everything that I had been planning and was certain about in my life was no longer there to catch me and for the first time in 3 years I ...