I was googling cool ideas for personal blog topics because I always seem to do best with personal topics and I couldn't really think of one to talk about and I came across a website with ideas. The first one was exactly this: "A Letter to my Teenage Self..." Now I know I am only 21 and my teenage years weren't all that long ago but honestly, I have changed so much since then I wish that I could go back and change a few simple things. So, here I go. I am going to write a letter to my "teenage self", I just randomly chose 17 but I am pretty much gonna cover 17 to 20 in here...
Dear Shelby,
Relax. Stop worrying about every little damn thing. Things are going to work out just fine. But while we are on the topic of worrying, you should probably worry a little more about your homework because trust ME. People are probably telling you now, you know you are gonna wish you tried harder in high school. Well, by golly they were right. TRY HARDER. You're smart, that much I know but you are so lazy and such a procrastinator. It should probably be your middle name. It is becoming ridiculous.
It isn't lame that you don't drink and love hanging out with your mom. Most of your friends understand that and they love you for it but I know there are some that make fun of you about it. Honestly, don't stress about it. Those few "friends" don't matter later in life and there is no use making yourself feeling crappy just because you don't like to go out and get wasted every weekend. Now you know how I said most of your friends understand? Those are the keepers girl... They are the truest friends you will ever have and DON'T ever give them up. You don't have to choose between people, ever. You can do both, you just have to have the courage to do it. When you're in the wrong, apologise. It doesn't matter who apologises first as long as at the end of the day everything is okay. Don't you dare settle, you know what you want and what you want for yourself. Do it. You know you can do it, so many people around you believe in you and you know exactly who those people are.
Also! Take a year off after high school, you have no idea what you want to do with your life. I know you feel pressure to pick a career and decide what you want to do with the rest of your life but honestly... That is crap. And the people who continue to tell you that's the way it is supposed to be? Well that is crap advice. You aren't supposed to know what you want when you are 17 so don't you even worry about it. Take some time... volunteer or something. Work some crappy jobs and eventually you will figure out just what you want to do and so what if it takes a couple years?!? That is fine!
I know that there are some people that you wish you hadn't lost touch with and you miss them all. Call them, text them, it's not as bad as you think. The pain you go through everyday missing them can be so easily fixed with just a conversation... a call. Any form of trying. Just try? K Shelb? You really don't know just how important these people are to you and just how much you need them in your life.
I know you think you know exactly how your life is going to turn out... You have it all planned out right? You're going to get married to your boyfriend and have kids and live happily ever after. Sometimes plans change love, and it's okay. It's gonna suck and it's going to be harder than you can imagine. You are so lucky to have such a great first relationship, and you know what, he loves you, he really does. So relax. Stop over thinking everything and just breathe. Go with the flow. I know you love him so much sometimes it is hard to breathe but that is the way it should be, you are young and in love. A good love. But when that love doesn't go in the direction that you had originally planned and your heart makes a quick and drastic detour. It's okay. You're allowed to change your mind and it's not your fault. Plans don't always work out the way we had intended but it doesn't mean you're a bad person. There is no doubt that everyone knows you both love each other but it's okay if you aren't the best match for each other. Sometimes there is good in goodbye. Just remember... It's OKAY.
Last but not least... Please stop worrying about everything. You're going to change and grow up a lot in a matter of months and even then sometimes you won't feel like you're worth it or good enough but you are. Don't ever forget that and if you ever forget look beside you because you have the best of friends girl. You have no idea how lucky you are.
I love you for your silly, procrastinating, worrying, clumsy and loving self.
Love,
You.
P.S- The clumsiness never goes away so just learn to deal with it... and get good winter boots.
Dear Shelby,
Relax. Stop worrying about every little damn thing. Things are going to work out just fine. But while we are on the topic of worrying, you should probably worry a little more about your homework because trust ME. People are probably telling you now, you know you are gonna wish you tried harder in high school. Well, by golly they were right. TRY HARDER. You're smart, that much I know but you are so lazy and such a procrastinator. It should probably be your middle name. It is becoming ridiculous.
It isn't lame that you don't drink and love hanging out with your mom. Most of your friends understand that and they love you for it but I know there are some that make fun of you about it. Honestly, don't stress about it. Those few "friends" don't matter later in life and there is no use making yourself feeling crappy just because you don't like to go out and get wasted every weekend. Now you know how I said most of your friends understand? Those are the keepers girl... They are the truest friends you will ever have and DON'T ever give them up. You don't have to choose between people, ever. You can do both, you just have to have the courage to do it. When you're in the wrong, apologise. It doesn't matter who apologises first as long as at the end of the day everything is okay. Don't you dare settle, you know what you want and what you want for yourself. Do it. You know you can do it, so many people around you believe in you and you know exactly who those people are.
Also! Take a year off after high school, you have no idea what you want to do with your life. I know you feel pressure to pick a career and decide what you want to do with the rest of your life but honestly... That is crap. And the people who continue to tell you that's the way it is supposed to be? Well that is crap advice. You aren't supposed to know what you want when you are 17 so don't you even worry about it. Take some time... volunteer or something. Work some crappy jobs and eventually you will figure out just what you want to do and so what if it takes a couple years?!? That is fine!
I know that there are some people that you wish you hadn't lost touch with and you miss them all. Call them, text them, it's not as bad as you think. The pain you go through everyday missing them can be so easily fixed with just a conversation... a call. Any form of trying. Just try? K Shelb? You really don't know just how important these people are to you and just how much you need them in your life.
I know you think you know exactly how your life is going to turn out... You have it all planned out right? You're going to get married to your boyfriend and have kids and live happily ever after. Sometimes plans change love, and it's okay. It's gonna suck and it's going to be harder than you can imagine. You are so lucky to have such a great first relationship, and you know what, he loves you, he really does. So relax. Stop over thinking everything and just breathe. Go with the flow. I know you love him so much sometimes it is hard to breathe but that is the way it should be, you are young and in love. A good love. But when that love doesn't go in the direction that you had originally planned and your heart makes a quick and drastic detour. It's okay. You're allowed to change your mind and it's not your fault. Plans don't always work out the way we had intended but it doesn't mean you're a bad person. There is no doubt that everyone knows you both love each other but it's okay if you aren't the best match for each other. Sometimes there is good in goodbye. Just remember... It's OKAY.
Last but not least... Please stop worrying about everything. You're going to change and grow up a lot in a matter of months and even then sometimes you won't feel like you're worth it or good enough but you are. Don't ever forget that and if you ever forget look beside you because you have the best of friends girl. You have no idea how lucky you are.
I love you for your silly, procrastinating, worrying, clumsy and loving self.
Love,
You.
P.S- The clumsiness never goes away so just learn to deal with it... and get good winter boots.
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