So, I was having a tough time coming up with ideas for my blog and my sister sent me a few ideas that I could use and one of them was phobias, so that made me think about everything and it made me realize that I have a few fears in my life that really really scare me. Also, I am gonna try and get pictures for this blog as well.... but it will freak me out so I hope you realize what I am going through lol. I will start with the least and end with the biggest fear! Here we go! =)
3. Clowns.
OMG. Please do not laugh because I am not kidding. I am petrified of clowns. I have no idea why but they scare the shit of out me. I have this fear that I am going to be locked in a carnival or something and the only things around are clowns. I remember one year we went to Screamfest and there was a clown walking around and I looked at it and thought to myself... he is gonna come up to me I know it. Well what do you know, as we are waiting in line he comes up behind me and whispers in my ear. To some people this might be funny or just to laugh it off, I can truly say I was so beyond scared. You can ask the friends I was with.
Most people think of clowns as happy people who just want to make other people happy. I think of clowns as terrible individuals that want to ruin your life. I prefer to not keep the company of clowns.... This is how a normal person would see a clown! Well after putting up these pictures I am probably not going to sleep tonight... Which is awesome and I am only on number 3. Perfect. Number 2 is worse.... See ya down there.
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So, my number 2 is a pretty common fear but my goodness... It is snakes. They are seriously the freakiest creatures on earth. Like beyond petrified.... I don't know what it is.... OH WAIT! Yes i do. They don't have legs. Animals should have legs. I don't like fish either for the record. I remember watching Anaconda when I was like 10 years old and I was like OMG that is how I am going to die. I am going to be eaten by a ginormous mother f****** snake. Pardon my french. But ahhhhh.... I seriously have goose bumps right now. I don't know why I thought this would be a good thing to write about. Could you imagine if there was a clown with a snake? I would seriously jump off the ferris wheel. Some might say, well that seems a little bit dramatic...I would say to them, NO IT IS NOT!!!!!!!!! That is a completely normal thing. I dont know and you know what? The smaller the worse eek. We were at the Comic Expo this past weekend and we were walking by all the little kiosk things... and there was a women there with a HUGE snake, I was like, Okay Shelby. breath its okay. Then guess what happened there was a kid with a little snake and I literally started running before I knew what was even going on. Lets just say it is a busy place and there was no clear path. People moved, they moved really quickly. AHHH!! Snakes... I hope you enjoyed reading that cause good lord I did not enjoy writing it... Okay, So I actually googled images of snakes and I covered my eyes before anything came up. I can't put a picture of a snake on here. This is exactly what I did and almost started crying so unfortunately, you people are going to have to live without a picture of a snake... I am so mortified right now.
3. Clowns.
OMG. Please do not laugh because I am not kidding. I am petrified of clowns. I have no idea why but they scare the shit of out me. I have this fear that I am going to be locked in a carnival or something and the only things around are clowns. I remember one year we went to Screamfest and there was a clown walking around and I looked at it and thought to myself... he is gonna come up to me I know it. Well what do you know, as we are waiting in line he comes up behind me and whispers in my ear. To some people this might be funny or just to laugh it off, I can truly say I was so beyond scared. You can ask the friends I was with.
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| THIS IS HOW I SEE CLOWNS. OMG.... |
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| See he looks nice and happy........ |
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So, my number 2 is a pretty common fear but my goodness... It is snakes. They are seriously the freakiest creatures on earth. Like beyond petrified.... I don't know what it is.... OH WAIT! Yes i do. They don't have legs. Animals should have legs. I don't like fish either for the record. I remember watching Anaconda when I was like 10 years old and I was like OMG that is how I am going to die. I am going to be eaten by a ginormous mother f****** snake. Pardon my french. But ahhhhh.... I seriously have goose bumps right now. I don't know why I thought this would be a good thing to write about. Could you imagine if there was a clown with a snake? I would seriously jump off the ferris wheel. Some might say, well that seems a little bit dramatic...I would say to them, NO IT IS NOT!!!!!!!!! That is a completely normal thing. I dont know and you know what? The smaller the worse eek. We were at the Comic Expo this past weekend and we were walking by all the little kiosk things... and there was a women there with a HUGE snake, I was like, Okay Shelby. breath its okay. Then guess what happened there was a kid with a little snake and I literally started running before I knew what was even going on. Lets just say it is a busy place and there was no clear path. People moved, they moved really quickly. AHHH!! Snakes... I hope you enjoyed reading that cause good lord I did not enjoy writing it... Okay, So I actually googled images of snakes and I covered my eyes before anything came up. I can't put a picture of a snake on here. This is exactly what I did and almost started crying so unfortunately, you people are going to have to live without a picture of a snake... I am so mortified right now.
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| THATS HOW SNAKES MAKE ME FEEL. So... My number 1 is kind of a completely different take and it is actually really hard for me to talk about which is why it has taken me a long time to post this one.... Here is a little back story before I go into it. The only thing in the world I really want to be is a mom. I want to help my kids with homework, bake cupcakes for their school functions, go on field trips, teach them how to talk and how to be nice to everyone. How to be humble and kind. I'm sure I used to say I never wanted to have kids when I was a teenager but who doesn't. For a long time now that is all I have ever wanted. My greatest reward in life will call me mom and I will love my children with absolutely every ounce of my heart. My biggest biggest fear in life is that when I try and have kids the doctors are going to say I can't. I know it is silly for me to think about now, but when you want nothing more in your life then that one thing... Its hard not to think about. Obviously there are other options like adoption, but it is still scary to think that there really is a chance that I could never be pregnant? No there is nothing is my genes that say I can't have children but it is still there in the back of my mind. The thought of it can literally make me start crying on the spot. I truly hope that one day I can be a great mom to my kids. I know that one day I will be a mom and I can't wait. I really can't. I know its a lot of work and I am in no rush that's for sure but honestly. But the day my first child is put in my arms will without a doubt be the day I am truly born too.
Kind of put a damper on the mood there, I apologize. Those are my three biggest fears in life and they are kind all different but yeah! I hope you enjoyed reading all about them! =)
Thank you for reading! Toodles for now!
xoxo
-Shelb
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