All About Shelby

 I know throughout life people meet other people and they are special and important to them... But I also hear that you will never love anyone more than yourself until you have children. However what if that isn't true? What if there are people in your life that you do love more than yourself? A person you would do absolutely anything for? I always read about soul mates and just assumed it was romantic; your soul mate would be someone you married or were in love with. Then I met someone who completely changed my who perception of what a soul mate was. I realized that it was someone you had such a strong connection with it felt like you had known them your entire life. I saw this quote: When I saw this picture it was like all the feelings I had built up thrown onto paper. It is something that you can't understand until it has happened to you. That one person that can make everything okay with just a smile, the one person that seems to understand you better than anyone els

HERE WE GO!!!! So, throughout life I have always been bigger. Now what "bigger" means, I don't really know. To some people I am chubby, to some I am fat and maybe to some I am obese. Now, I know this. I am not blind to the fact that I am not skinny. Of all the people in the world who should know that, it is me. I am the one with the body. For a long time I really hated myself, I didn't think I was pretty or beautiful and when people told me those things I just shrugged it off. I hate getting compliments, I go all blushy and never really know what to do. Obviously I say thank you, but you know! I just cannot believe the pressures that the media puts on women (and men) to be so perfect. My friends, I am going to let you in on a little secret. Perfection does NOT EXIST. The one thing that you can control no matter what? The kind of person you are. Be kind, be generous, be strong, be stubborn, be the very best version of yourself. That is all that matters in the world

I don't even know how to talk about this last year. I can't believe how fast it flew by. The beginning of 2013 was so far, the toughest and most difficult point in my life. I ended things with my ex and honestly I had never felt more alone. Even though I was surrounded by people who cared about me and were standing behind me no matter what decision I made I was walking away from the one person that had been there for me for the past 3 years and that was something that couldn't be replaced. I suppose I never really talked about it much on here but it definitely put me in a rough spot in my life. Just because you are the one doing the breaking up doesn't mean that it is any easier. I was literally walking away from someone I knew loved me more than anything in the world, that had my back and wanted to spend the rest of his life with me. Everything that I had been planning and was certain about in my life was no longer there to catch me and for the first time in 3 years I